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My name is Alana. I have a chronic pain condition called vulvodynia. I love to sing, read and learn (unless it's something I have to learn, then it becomes boring.) I am single, and am choosing to stay that way. I have no patience or time for immaturity or humans with Arrogant-Arsehole-Syndrome. I let an arsehole ruin my life once before, as clear from the blog. Anyone who promises they are "not like most guys/girls" are always exactly like "most girls/guys". I promise you though, I'm not like most girls ;)

Sunday 20 February 2011

Stay For More?

The contents of a stomach
Splattered on the floor
A drunken girl in heels
Slumped behind the door

Where are you going?
Aren't you going to stay for more?
You tell me "no, this place is hell"
Are you sure you're sure?

Let me read your horoscope
If I dont, oh how will you cope?!
You tell me words can't shape your life
Oh! They can, just like a carving knife
You're just about to leave
I scream don't walk away from me

Where are you going?
Aren't you going to stay for more?
Say you can't have me around
But I'm not sure you're sure

(Bridgey bit)
I'm sitting alone on the setee
Staring at the blank TV
You put your arms around me
...and say

For every flaw I have
You have three more
But I wouldn't change a thing
You can be sure I'm sure

Fuck

It's just a mad house spinning round in circles that don't quite meet up at the edges

It's a shambles, crumbling in pieces big enough to crush us under it's weight

Jagged

Who am I?
I'm not sure
I'm stubborn and
Insecure

I'm rough around the edges
Too jagged to love
it makes no diffrerence to try
its never enough

Demolition

Day one merges into four, four into eight
I pace the floor thinking of you
'Til it gets too late
Our world's have been torn apart
I ripped at your seams
I howled to you constantly
I destroyed... All we were
Now I'm here
On my own

Some day when I lost count
Our worlds met/again
I had a different mind
But you were the/same
You clawed at my structure
You collapsed all my beams
You destroyed us, it seems
Now you're there
On your own

Better Half

I remember when we fitted so well
You were my world, I was yours
We were in love, they could tell

When you looked at me your eyes they shone
So bright and full of loving light
But now I'm sitting in the dark
I don't know where you are tonight
I don't know where you've gone
Tonight
You're not around and I'm... down

I remember how we used to laugh
How you were my better half